I’m not me

I hate this. I’m feeling like I’m not myself again. I don’t know if it’s because I’m eating more salt, which displaces my lithium, or if it’s my hormones as I should start my period any time, but whatever it is, I’m not me.

Looking up dysphoria I think that’s what it is. I hate this.

https://www.verywell.com/what-is-dysphoria-378817

And, it could be hormones or bipolar (or both!!) …. I’m so tired of this, and it’s been going on for less than 24 hours this time.

The last time I remember feeling like this, at least clearly remember, I started picking fights with Johnny.

I just… I am going to repeat myself… I’m tired of this. I hate this.